I know I can't give up. I won't give up this time either. But today as I was running I started to think about all the reasons I wanted to lose weight.... and let's be honest they are the most important things in my life.
- Justin - he deserves a healthy wife and someone who can do physical activity - we deserve health and happiness together
- My own health - I want a long and happy life
- For my family - they want me happy and healthy
- And for our kids. I want kids. I can't wait to embark on parenthood with Justin but I refuse to do it until I lose a lot of weight and become healthier - sidenote, it will be over a year before we even think of trying but it will take me over a year to be healthy!
I am struggling right now with the willpower to keep going. And if it wasn't for Justin tonight, I would have been all caught up on Real Housewives....
I know this feeling of giving up will pass, and in a few more runs I will have my enthusiasm back - I do have to admit, I feel great after tonight's run and I know that I want to keep doing this. I want healthy more than I want to quit!